Producing The Future

An update on my life

So yeah, the best way for me to feel better about anything at all is to type about it. so here i sit about to type some important shit out. 

So yeah

It feels like the world has turned it’s back on me. I feel like nothing. I exist yet i feel like fresh carbon dioxide blown out of a pair of lungs. The world feels pretty cold right about now. I haven’t met anyone that i’ve had a serious connection with in a long time. someone to tell my problems about, or even just someone to really spend time around. but thats just issue 1 out of 1000. I haven’t talked to my mom in over month since she kicked me out. I miss my old friends. and more importantly, i miss the feeling of comfort i used to at least be able to hold on to. now all i can do is drown away my issues in alchahol. The old feeling of being close with someone is gone for good. I’m all alone and thats how it will stay.I have amazing friends but, i feel like i’m half the person i should be and i try to help it but i can’t. i just feel worse and worse. it doesn’t feel like depression but i know it’ll just get worse. i wish i had the strength to get myself out of this mess. it’s only getting harder and harder to keep my head up. 

(Source: astronautsanonymous)